Sometimes It’s Not Beautiful
Sometimes it’s not beautiful…
Because it’s new and you’re learning.
Because it’s old and you haven’t done it in a while.
Because you’re tired and feeling clumsy.
Because you’ve forgotten the steps.
Because your muscles feel tight and your mind feels sluggish and your soul just doesn’t have the same passion as yesterday.
Sometimes it’s not beautiful…
But YOU still are.
Sometimes you need the world to recede. You need to hide from it because it’s simply too much to bear for one moment longer. And your practice slows down. You stop dancing so hard, so fast, so strong. You stop stretching to your maximum potential. You stop meditating everyday. You just need it all to STOP because it’s spinning too fast for you to handle and you’re just trying to remember how to Breathe.
So let it STOP.
Let it stop NOW. Right NOW. Let the world go. You don’t have to hold it together one second longer. You don’t have to make it all work perfectly. That’s not your job right now.
You’re job is to BREATH.
You’re job is to put your feet on the ground and feel the earth pulsing underneath your toes.
You’re job is to simply experience what it means to be completely and totally alive exactly where you are and exactly who you are at this second in time.
And then when you are ready. When you can feel your breath moving in and out. When the energy of your own life is gently humming through your fingertips.
Then and ONLY THEN…
Let it begin again.
But this time, look at it with a child’s wonder. With a beginners mind. To a child, every moment is a new opportunity to play, a new opportunity to learn, experience, grow, laugh, and love life with an open heart.
Open your heart to your true Self. This is who you are. This is how you dance. This is how you spin and twirl. This is how you bend and extend.
This is your body and this is how it moves. This is how it feels to fly.
Maybe it feels tired. Maybe it feels energized.
Maybe it feels dirty. Maybe it feels clean.
No matter how it feels, it also feels alive. Because when you dance like a child, like a beginner, your dance comes alive.
Alive with truth. Alive with Breath. Alive with every emotion and experience you’ve had since your eyes first opened to this world.
And whether the dance feels beautiful or not, YOU, and the child inside you, are more beautiful than words can describe.
Twirl, Swirl, and Fly!
23 Comments
Jennifer
So needed to hear this – you are awesome, Yannori!
Yannori
Thanks Jennifer! I didn’t realize how much I needed to remind myself about this until I wrote it. I’m glad it gave you a boost today. 🙂
Marie Molicki
Nice article. I was just worrying about this the other day and I’m glad you’ve written about it. 🙂
Yannori
Marie, I’m happy to have you here. Thanks for reading and sharing your experience.
HJ
Excellent work once again! I really love checking out your website! Hoping to see some more of your works in the future!
Yannori
HJ – That’s so sweet! I’ll keep trying to post more articles. And thanks for hanging out on my blog. 🙂
Lisa Thomas
Oh my…..I loved this article. The world makes us feel like we have to ask for permission to STOP. Or feel guilty for the moment when we can’t do it all. The guilty pleasure and indulgence of deep satisfying breath….is there really anything better. Thank you for your reminder. I need to repost on my facebook page. How do I do that???
Luscious Lap Dances,
Lisa
Yannori
Lisa, Yes, I totally agree. It is vital to know when to simply STOP and breath. And we have to know when to give ourselves permission even if the world doesn’t want to.
To repost this on Facebook, just copy the html address and paste it into the “link” section of your updates.
Thank you so much for sharing my blog with others! xoxo
Christine
Great blog, thank you for sharing a piece of yourself! I really love it.
Yannori
Hi Christine! I love new readers. Thanks for visiting and I’m glad my words touched you.
Jaime
Awesome. Just started pole classes and it’s not beautiful……yet. I have faith it will be. This is my outlet to be me, to be beautiful! Thanks Yannori!
Yannori
You are already so beautiful, Jaime, for simply having the courage to explore your sensuality and enjoy being a woman! Dance on and rock your world. 🙂
Chwenny
I was so happy when I opened my email and saw this post! So glad you took some time to write again, I missed hearing your ‘voice’ here. And the next time I feel tired and frustrated I will def remember that it doesn’t always have to be beautiful 🙂
Yannori
Chwenny – I really appreciate having readers who can feel how much I love pole and love writing about pole. It’s wonderful to have you here. Thank you!
Maria
I cried, cried real hard, when I read this. Thank you Yannori, for reminding me of that. I will stop, and breathe, and breathe again… and probably will cry a lot, but it will be beautiful again… someday.
Yannori
Oh sweet Maria, you are so beautiful for allowing yourself the time and space to be vulnerable. To live and experience your emotions and then move through them with dance and with life. Thank you for sharing a piece of yourself here. It means a lot to me. xoxo
SLY
I NEEDED this right now. My god, thank you. I find the beauty in movement by dancing where ever I am mentally. If I’m frustrated, I dance that. If I feel clumsy, I dance that. If I feel coy or lovely or horrible, I move with that and don’t pressure myself to be something else. I stay where I am and experience it and explore & express it.
Yannori
Sheena. that is nothing short of awesome. I feel absolutely blessed to share this movement with woman who love to live from every cell of their body. Thank you for sharing your experience! xoxo
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donam
That is such a beautiful article and to be honest — how I have felt more times than i can count.
We all have to stop and just breathe once awhile
Yannori
Donna – sometimes we all need just a little bit more permission to breath and be ourselves. Thank you for sharing your experience here. xoxo
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